Markwell

(I wrote this years ago and could never title or finish it right, but it’s time for it to stop haunting my drafts lol)

We both know you’re easier to love in the cold, 

Before I met you I never planned on growing old. 

You’ve been reading my messages for years, 

But you don’t listen to me, so here it is.

I used to dream and now they’re only nightmares, 

It’s when you don’t make it out alive, they start caring about your general welfare. 

We held her wrists together in the shower, 

We weren’t meant to come home for hours.

You’re not going anywhere I promise you this, 

Back then we didn’t know you were the first of two to call it quits. 

Stop reminiscing about 5/36 

Can’t you see just how dangerous nostalgia is? 

These aren’t fond memories, they’re my affliction

I just hope you’re sleeping, in the recovery position. 

Life of the party but really they just had nowhere to go,

Thought I would die for you but I was the only one with a home.

And I know I shouldn’t have danced with your boyfriend, 

Well he stopped talking to me when the lease end.

Should have known cos he would only blow in to use the bathroom,

When he needed somewhere to do blow on a Tuesday afternoon.

Do you remember when I had to call at 3am,

Way before you could drop a pin.

These same legs took me to the cemetery

And I told you I was on the corner of two streets we’ve never been.

You called me a taxi, I was freaking out alone in the back seat

Well he’s dead now, and you’re dead to me.

Stop reminiscing about 5/36 

Can’t you see just how dangerous nostalgia is? 

These aren’t fond memories, they’re my affliction

I just hope you’re sleeping, in the recovery position.